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Happy Chinese New Year!

2012-01-23T13:01:00.004+08:00

Pardon my chain of self-obsessed shots hahahaha.

New zara jeans that makes me look super skinny! Love it love it.

CNY eve's eve. lol! Went to V3 with J and his friends. Got so fucking drunk and puked from V3 all the way back home. Am NEVER drinking on an empty stomach ever again. It was the fucking most terrible drunken state I've been in seriously, I was puking white foamy stuffs, and I couldn't even open my eyes. I even told J to "just let me die". Thinking of it now, I feel like puking again eww.

So that's over now. CNY eve was spent at J's grandma's place and then to Orchard.

CNY kiss for everyone!

I'm shocked to see how quiet Orchard was...

Love.

Yesterday night I tweeted about being blissful to have someone who's willing to go the extra mile for you. I have to say this again! Last night, minutes before we were heading home from Orchard, I suddenly had a huge craving for ice cream, and I really wanted Ice Cream Chef, so I told J, and he immediate rode us there only to find that it's closed. Being exhausted, J suggest that we go home rest, and I said okay. While we were on highway, I told him I wanted to go to Causeway Point for Gelare. And despite having a massive headache, he brought me there, only to find that it's also closed. We ended up having Swensen's, which was not satisfying cause I don't like Swensen's ice cream.

But with all this, I'm not a least bit disappointed, cause as I mentioned in my tweets, J's effort was sweeter than any ice cream.

Some lovey-dovey story to make people cringe on CNY! haha. Hope you have a happy and blissful CNY. Xoxo

CNY shopping

2012-01-21T16:05:00.003+08:00

Went CNY shopping with J ytd. Cine's Shokudo for early dinner first.

I wanted to go try out some cheap mondays but the denim store was SO jam-packed. Ended up getting zara instead :( so disappointed.

Went to coffee club to grab a drink and kill time cause we stupidly got tickets for 11:20pm show instead of 9pm. Lol.

Watched Journey 2, and actually I slept throughout the movie. It always happens!! Actually I don't really like to watch movies cause its not cheap lor a movie ticket?? I'd rather download it and watch at home in comfy clothes and lie on bed. Most of all, it's FREE. So what happens is, everytime i go catch a movie, 8 out of 10 times I'd end up missing the climax cause I slept through it. hahaha. I still remember last night in the cinema when J woke me up after the movie was over, i went "why am i not at home?"

So..... both of us fell right asleep without bathing. Ewwwww i know!! hahaha we were too exhausted to even move a bit. We both woke up at like 7 or 8 in the morning? And so I woke up at 7am this morning to take a shower, and went back to sleep at 9am.

Yesterday was pretty awesome :) J and I walked up and down Orchard road without a destination. We were just hand in hand singing Teenage Dream really badly. And we had a really long talk at Coffeeclub. I still have issues to fix, and until I fix them, I know I can never make him truly happy because I really am horrible... Why can't I be just like some normal girl??

Bling nails

2012-01-12T23:15:00.001+08:00

Got my nails ready for cny! Enthu siao. Cny still so far away lol. Hopefully my nails can last till then!

Bye 2011

2012-01-03T03:35:00.002+08:00

Fast isn't it, how 2011 ended.

Last day of 2011 was spent with J. Going to Sentosa then to town then to barrage then back to woodlands. It was such a bore! But quality time with him :)

Its creepy how 2012 creeps in and all of a sudden, 2011 bade goodbye like that. Poof, gone. I know how dramatic it sounds but I really love 2011. How everything worked out so well. How happy I was, compared to the shitty 2010. I really hope 2012 will be a good one cause I'm finally going back to school!! *fingers crossed*

Time for a little blast from the pastttt!

Siloso countdown party!

Prawning with Sharon and Kyrene.

Moving into my new room and getting used to sleeping alone :)

L sleeping over at my place after I've moved into my own room.

My first Chanel hehe.

Going furniture shopping at IKEA.

Last few dental visit.

Taylor Swift concert with Raf! <3 miss her so much.

Photobooth madness at Kyr's place with Kaelyn.

Shisha with Candice and Sharon.

Last boat quay trip before we officially turned legal and clarke quay became our fav place instead of boat quay.

Church with XR.

Went to Orchard for a little alone-time shopping.

Church, where I saw him again.

Genting with 'em. Miss the fun times!!

Learned to play monopoly deal in genting.

Eating alone in the room cause i locked everyone out while i was drunk the night before hahahah

Prawning with 'em.

USS with my fav girls, on my birthday. <3

Removed braces one day after my birthday.

Rebel for L's birthday.

Random day out with Geor, Kuku and Jiahui.

Out in the sun with them :)

Worked at a shitty carnival but got this teddy as a 'present'? from a little boy. hahah.

Bro came back from france! after a good 1.5 years.

Jo's birthday at PH. where i got dead drunk and Daryl had to send me home hahaha.

New furniture.

Icekimo for Joan's farewell-for-2-weeks party. lol.

Church with xueni.

Movie date with Wan.

Bangkok with Candice, Cindy and Sharon. Where we had a fight with thai girls. Drama!

Rebel one day after we return from bangkok. the night I met J :)

31st July. :)

USS with 'em fun people.

Double date to genting.

Joined the iPhone gang!!

And yeahhh i skipped a lot cause I was busy with some other stuffs! So there you go, what roughly happened in 2011 for me. Seems simple and boring but I had a lot of fun, spent most of my time laughing, smiling and being contented. That's enough for me seriously.

New year resolution time? I guess I just want to be learn to be a more patient and tolerant. And of course, be easily-contented but not complacent. What's yours? :)

Path

2011-12-29T22:24:00.002+08:00

Still coping with work though sometimes I really can die from the stress I get... Had a 4-hour meeting today! Glad that I didn't get reprimanded for anything though. Please pray hard for me, for my promoters, for sales. Cramps are not letting me off as month-end approaches. Arghs.... Hate being a girl :(

Love my new hair colour! :> Also, yes yes yes.... I'm aware that my mirror is still grotesquely dirty. I should really blog about my room someday and everyone can see how horrible I am at maintaining stuffs and keeping things in place. lol! my clothes are all over my bed, my bags all over the floor, cosmetics all over the place. Oh boy...

Anyhowz, attention all iPhone users! Go download this app called "Path". Its really interesting and fun. Add me!!!

It's sort of like a journal in timeline style, you can choose their high-definition, chio and somewhat pretentious photos as cover or you can just choose your own! In my case I chose my favourite pic of me and J :) I choose to believe FB's new timeline style profile is 'inspired' by Path. I really love Path and I'm on it almost all day, neglecting twitter and fb. And talking about twitter and fb, it allows you to share things on both places too.

Path allows you to upload pix, share music, share location, tag friends, and also one thing cute about Path is they have this awake/sleep button. Click sleep when you're going to bed and awake when you wake up. It'll all be on your timeline. Tells people where you are, the weather there, and how long you've been asleep. CUTE NO??!

Now I sound like I'm doing an advertisement for them lol. I just really love the app. And one reason is I've really little friends on Path and its so depressing. So, add me nowwww! hehe.

Friday's finally here! Have a good weekend ahead. Xoxo.

JB with the boy

2011-12-27T22:48:00.002+08:00

Went to Johor Bahru with J to get some pretty accessories for my phone. Super love my phone now! The bulky hello kitty one proved too difficult to handle on daily basis! :( plus it collects dust and my phone looks damnnnnn dirty after awhile of using it. i really love that one though cause it's really cute. :<

Anyhowz, here's my new simple, lighter case. And also photobooth won't capture it, but i got crystal blingy home button sticker and its super chiooo! LOVE IT.

Here's my vain boy and his xmas present. (he forced me to take pic of him with his present, that silly boy) haha :)

I actually prefer him wearing the Giorgio Armani one but he says he like Gucci Guilty better. Oh wells.....

Lots of love for him :)

Christmas

2011-12-26T14:14:00.005+08:00

How was your Christmas?? It's difficult to define mine cause J and I sorta broke up? Break patch break patch, i swear its a freaking cycle that I'll never get out off. >:c arghs. i fucking hate myself for always making such decisions and then regretting a few hrs after that. Can NEVER freaking make up my mind about anything.

Anyway, if you're interested. I left Marine Parade after returning J his keys. Got home, decided that I won't spend my christmas alone, I won't be emo nemo, I went out.

Went to bugis for a little drinking with Tom and Dick. And it really was Tom who talked me out of making that choice. I really cannot decide if I should love or hate him for that. I really wanted a peaceful christmas sleep and then wake up ready to face everything. But I failed.

Got home, met J, talked things out. Finally Christmas is upon us. So we just decided not to ruin each other's Christmas. Went on a little date with him to Chili's. Since I've been saying for months that I wanna have Chili's, and he also promised to bring me there.

We wanted to go to minds cafe and end our christmas night playing boardgames with his bunch of friends. but somehow we ended up at Jab1 at Boat Quay instead. The only quiet place where you can get some alcohol without being shoved and pushed. I remember spending all those underage-but-wanna-drink days at Boat Quay with my girls!! haha. That stretch of pubs still bring back so much memories.

After just a few drinks, home sweet home.

And and, christmas presents from colleagues!!

We had performances and gift exchange in the office. Our department won first prize for the performance!! Whoop whoop whee~ Lol. One of the most eventful and happening Christmas for me. :) I really am quite satisfied with everything I have now.

Santa please grant me a wish and make me less psycho.

Really don't know when I will act up again and torment J...

Merry Christmas. Xoxo.

It's been long.

2011-12-19T22:25:00.005+08:00

Hi!! ok i don't think anyone is still reading this space. I'm backkkkk :> After being away for so long cause I always have nth to blog about. Now that I've gotten an iphone, i snap pix almost everywhere I go. So I've lotsa pix to load this place with! hehe.

First of all, why did I go from blackberry to iphone? Awkward enough, I love the iphone more than blackberry. Okay all blackberry users hate me now. Lol. No but seriously, other than the fact that iphone's battery sucks, and their keyboard is not good enough compared to blackberry, what's not to love about an iphone? Nobody can answer that because almost everyone has an iphone on their hands now. I think at least 6 out of 10 people has an iphone now.

'Nuff said. Pix from my phone!

And as I've mentioned, I've a love-hate relationship with this phone. And of course you know why I love this phone, as the pix above showed. hahaha. Vain girl's favourite toy! But I really hate the battery life, and also is it just my phone?? I'm not getting any push notifications from twitter! It's so bloody annoying. pfft.

Lastly, I'm so excited to blog about this!! Cause I got a promotion!! hahaha now i sound really old cause only adults say this. what kind of promotion can I get given that I'm only 18 right? But I got it! And as expected, I think I'm the youngest in the office, and in this position. I don't want to sound like I'm bragging about it so I'm not going to say much, although I am kinda bragging about it. Duh. I feel proud to be earning above average for an 18 year-old. I ought to feel proud, no?

Finally, Christmas is going to be here! My favorite festive ever. Enjoy your christmas everyone :) Xo.

Double date

2011-09-26T22:31:00.002+08:00

Just got back from our double date to Genting.

Yes, its a really boring place, given that I've just been there 4 months ago?? There's really nothing much to do, but the companion makes the trip worth it. Day 2 went bad when J and I started quarreling inside the theme park, talk about drama! But we spent the night strolling around, enjoying the breeze, and all went well. Really love the weather there! 4 of us sat outside the theme park at night for more than an hour, just looking at the lighting and the sky. If it was Singapore, we would've died of heat or be too irritated by the strong wind.

So enthu cause we're planning our bangkok trip tgt!! hehehe.

Universal Studios!

2011-09-17T21:46:00.002+08:00

3 failed attempts at imitating marilyn monroe!

We took the galactic stars ride and can i say the red one is BORINGGG??! Love the blue one so much but I got so nauseous after the 3rd time on it? or was it the 3rd time on the mummy ride? We took the two rides repeatedly, best part was laughing at how YC cringes everytime we say we wanna take those rides. hahaha.

The pix are making me hungry :( miss the turkey leg so much. NEED IT NOW.

First half of the day had us whining about perspiring and getting our skin tanned, and well the second part of the day just had us wishing the sun was out cause it was freaking pouring. Just our luck... Fortunately the rain only lasted for not more than an hour.

Nothing beats the companion of old friends who gets each others' jokes. It was one of the best days of the month for me, although the night before was disastrous and I only had a bit of sleep before i went to USS. Should've noticed my hugeass swollen eyes in almost every pic, and maybe you'll get it - why i say the night before was disastrous.

Please tell me I'm not the only girlfriend in the world that makes her bf begs her to not torture him?? lol... I mean mentally torture and I'm sure he meant that too. I feel like the world's worst girlfriend ever. Why am I so bad at handling relationships? Must stop being so psycho and insecure and distrustful already. Let the past be the past...

BOO!

2011-08-26T22:03:00.002+08:00

Don't I look happy?! Thank god for everything that's happening now. Its been rocky, but I'm learning. Spent too much time worrying and fearing, its time for some changes. I received some questions on formspring asking me to blog abt the boy above, and I was in utter shock. Does anyone still come to this abandoned place?? I feel like I've failed you if you're still reading this. This blog is SO DEAD.

This whole month has been occupied by work, or the boy. I have to apologise to my girls for not spending as much time with them!! :( I'm such an ass. I promise I'll ditch J someday just to meet you two and spend at least 24hours tgt before I go back to him ok? haha!

It was rocky and difficult at the beginning, it didn't started the conventional way, it wasn't the perfect moment, I'm probably the worst girl you ever fell in love with, it wasn't easy for you; which is why I love you. You never give up despite all these. Thanks. <3

Have to tone down my psycho-ness alrdy. I don't think I've ever seen a worst girlfriend than myself?! So irritable, easily pissed, easily upset, jealous, difficult to please, difficult to love. I'm so pissed with myself all the time for giving you nonsense. NEED TO CHANGE. I need to know I'm not the only one struggling to change.

On a happier side note, will be going to Genting with J, Sharon and her loverboy in 3 weeks' time!! Something to look forward to again!

Its been long

2011-08-01T00:30:00.002+08:00

this place feels so abandoned! looking at photos we took in bangkok makes me miss the girls and the fun times :( wanna go back soon again.

I've been a really happy girl lately and there's really nothing much more I'd ask for. Just let it stay this way please.

August, please be good.

Rebel

2011-07-10T19:31:00.006+08:00

The girls have been crazy about Rebel. So.... there goes my weekend nights, with the girls ♥

Drinks at Groove before going to Rebel.

Curled my hair with the curling tong I got from bkk for only $10!!! DIRT CHEAP.

Now I see the world as a candy store
With a cigarette smile, saying things you can't ignore

BRB

2011-07-07T06:31:00.002+08:00

I'm back from bkk! Will blog about the trip soon. Just done unpacking my 2 luggages. Took a nice shower. Home's the best but sometimes I just rather be out there, I feel like I'm missing out on so much if I just stay home and do nothing.

Alright, not the best time to get all sentimental, good night.

P.S.: Have a lot to blog about! We had a fight with some thai girls while at Bangkok, talk about drama!

Bright pink

2011-06-30T01:06:00.003+08:00

Loving my new bright pink nail polish so very much!

Sorry I've been too busy with work, or sleep. My body's been aching since yesterday, I'm guessing its from all the standing at work. Going to Bangkok this coming Saturday! Me so excited~

Just came back from dinner + movie date with Wan. Caught Your Highness and it was only mehhhh. But Natalie Portman made the time and money worth it! Why she so pretty? The movie's pretty funny la, just the storyline damn crappy. If you were to ask me, I'd say Your Highness is just a tacky fairytale with crude humor threw in. Enjoyed the dinner with Wan though. Also got presents from him, which he got for me from his Bali and Jakarta trip.

I keep on typing and backspacing, will stop here before I start another emo post. Good night.

Random updates

2011-06-20T17:48:00.005+08:00

1. Last dinner before Joan leaves for Australia. Deserts at icekimo.

2. Went for service, Father's Day service. Hilarious drama and met some people I missed. <3

3. Went to JB with Yeeting and Xinyi for good food and cheap stuffs. Didn't buy much for myself but I had fun.

4. New furniture came in today, spent half of the day cleaning up my room and moving the old one out and the new one in.

What do you think? :)

Its comforting to see some people I miss and haven't seen in awhile, seeing that they're doing well just makes me feel happy. I wonder when has all the bitterness stopped but I'm happy it did. I'm so much happier now, I don't hate as much, I'm not bitter anymore, I'm no longer lost and confused.

Xoxo.

Jo's belated 18th birthday

2011-06-16T17:54:00.005+08:00

St James Powerhouse for Jowena's belated 18th birthday celebration. It was a blast! Had so much fun, except the part which I spent trying to figure out why a little bit of Hennessy is making me so tipsy, okay I'll admit, more than tipsy. I was blabbering nonsense, dancing like a mad woman - but its good exercise right?? I sweat a ton. hehehe. Hoping I can lose weight from all this.

Happy girls are the prettiest!

Check out my tomato-red face after a couple of Henessy on the rocks! Tsk. Oh and check out my chubby face and double chin. Arghs!! Need to lose weight so badly. Sighs. Been receiving lots of comments about me putting on weight again. This is so.... depressing. Oh well.... all thanks to my huge appetite uh :(

Need to go out more often, keep myself occupied cause I'm really happy when I'm busy. Now I don't understand why I can stand staying at home for 3 days straight just staring at the computer screen; like I used to do in the past. I've been happy and that's enough for me :)

Updates

2011-06-15T00:12:00.004+08:00

Bro's back from France!! After a good 1.5 years of being away.

Going to IKEA with bro for some furniture shopping as well as get his room done soon. Hangover 2 at night with tyc and xr.

Cute teddy bear from carnival I worked at last weekend! <3

And random photos of me I found. I don't even remember taking these. Lol. Oh god I need some pills for my memory.

Sentosa

2011-06-11T04:53:00.006+08:00

Can't really remember when was the last time I went to Sentosa? Just went there yesterday after a night of alcohol at chalet and only 2 hours of sleep. Superrrrr fun day, tiring too. Went home aching all over the place and woke up feeling like I just got back from a marathon.

Ended day with good food and quality time. <3

I'm tired and this is all I've got. Pun intended.
Xoxo.

Insidious

2011-06-05T02:22:00.004+08:00

Went to catch Insidious at yishun the other day and I was pleasantly surprised! More than pleased actually, I love the movie - won't mind watching it again at all.

For all you horror movie lovers, you HAVE to watch it. Its good, I promise.

Impromptu decision to head down to Bugis after the movie. Bugis is a bad place to go to at this time!! GSS everywhere and all the clothes going for half of its regular price, don't want to see my bank's balance deplete that fast. :( Especially having topshop there, thank god my pay wasn't out when I was there. *self-control*

Must avoid town areas now, avoid the shops I'll go into and spend a whole lot on. If not my July plan will never work out, never :( Have determination to save up now, but I know my heart sways super easily at the sight of clothes and shoes. SAVE UP SAVE UP SAVE UP.

Blurry

2011-05-25T17:01:00.002+08:00

Well you know how drunk shaky hands work with cameras.

Rebel for L's 18th birthday. Happy belated birthday dear girl!! <3

2011-05-25T16:56:00.001+08:00

Just tonight.

2011-05-21T15:53:00.003+08:00

My boring saturday afternoon.

Butterfactory tonight with the girls <3 anyone gg thr tonight?

New favourite song after "You give love a bad name".

Perfection

2011-05-16T22:47:00.002+08:00

Work has been exhausting and i've been so carried away by the exhaustion that when i take some time to sit down and think about it, i realised how much i've missed out. some of the most disheartening drifted relationships is what's killing me. i don't see why some people don't get it, your expectations are way beyond my capability to give. Should i really take the blame for not performing up to expectations?

I've no idea since when I started becoming so self-centered. I stopped blaming myself for not being the best I can, i can't please everyone.

Say goodbye to another thing in my life...

2011-05-08T00:38:00.003+08:00

BRACES!

FINALLY!! After 2 years, feels so weird now. Oh and i need to bleach my teeth but it cost like $1k+?? where to find that amount of money??! Already $5k gone for the braces.

Now, back to see the results of GE. I can't sleep until I know the results!! PAP musn't lose :(

18th birthday

2011-05-06T15:45:00.004+08:00

Went to USS for my 18th birthday and my prayer came true, only a bit too much. Prayed that it wouldn't rain and it didn't, but the sun was like trying to kill us!!! SUPER WARM. Had fun though, you have to go take the Mummy ride and the galactic ride. i like the mummy one the best. its like all dark and spooky inside, full of surprises!

the super cute betty boop shop!

My birthday present frm them. hehehe luv marilyn monroe.

Going crazy over all the merchandise with marilyn monroe's face on.

i think this part is called the lights camera action?? the one where it starts with steven spielberg introducing the following scene. so cool!! the effects were damn real and we actually screamed.

too much colouring in the damn $4.50 drink! i'm not kidding when i say the food and drinks inside are DAMN expensive.

this ride was not bad? not worth the 50mins queue though.

i rmb when the boat (??) went down the slide all i screamed was "ahhhhh my face!!" LOL. can imagine the other ppl on the same boat must be thinking "what a bimbo. want come play still so vain." hahaha.

We left USS for late lunch at Chili's. the food's greattttt. get the baby back rib in honey BBQ if u ever go there. we had strawberry margarita as well.

unglamly excited for my food.

FOOD AND FRIENDS = LOVE.

Sharon's camera died afterwards :( but i really had fun. i'd go back again!! i don't care if i have to pay tht entrance fee this time. lol! i didn't pay for the one yesterday, my dad got it for me. hehe. when i go back i'm going to take the mummy ride at least 10times!! and try the human side of the galactic ride. only got to ride the blue one cause L and S didn't dare get on the rides and after riding on the blue one alone i got bored :( rides alone are boringgggg~

Need someone brave to go with me!

Saying goodbye to paradise. went home afterwards cause we were all dead walking zombies. very tiring!!

Spent the first few hours of my 18th birthday thinking back. time really flies, no?? seems like it was yesterday when i cried in kindergarten on the first day of school, like it was yesterday when i went to primary school, then secondary school. then poly and quitted poly. wtf. time is a really scary thing...

Exhausted

2011-05-01T23:16:00.002+08:00

Tired beyond imaginable, missing you beyond words.

my legs feel detached frm my hip and my heels are indescribably painful. but i won't complain, i won't. I love this job and its way better than not doing anything and jst lazing around everyday. Now i find something new to look forward to everyday. Say an official goodbye to april cause its fucking celebration time. April oh april u exhausted my patience but now you're gone.

IMY

2011-04-28T20:18:00.003+08:00

its just better to pretend we're all happy and that we don't miss the past.
we don't see the past better than it is.
or is it?

Just because i stopped speaking about you doesn't mean i don't miss you anymore.

Easter saturday night

2011-04-26T17:35:00.003+08:00

Guess what we did on easter saturday night?? PRAWNING! how cruel.... it is rly sad seeing the poor (and disgusting) worms being cut up, hooked and drowned. even sadder to see the prawns slowly die on the grill. but who cares, its yummy. :P

I don't care how angry you look you're NOT having our prawns! muahahaha.

Bag of presents YC brought back from Taiwan!!! :D

I know my eyes are super swollen, cried after service and all my mascara melted. it was HORRIBLE. and what's worst is i was rushing out that day and i didn't bring any make up with me! other than my eyelash glue but my eyelash did not fell off. suay like pisai. -_-

i only sat thr, wait for prawns to come, wait for the boys to wash and cook the prawns and eat. hehe. you can see how sadistic it actually is... poking the stick through the ass up the head. RIP prawns. have a nice swim in my tummy.

I hate how i cry such an awful lot??! Very active tear duct. got any kind of medicines that stops people from crying so much? Crying is weakness and weakness is bad...

What if i said

2011-04-22T18:08:00.002+08:00

What if i told you that i loved you.
How would you feel
what would you think
what would we do.
Do we dare cross that line
between your heart and mine
or would i lose a friend
or find a love that would never end.

My life is sucha bore now. Need to find something to do and so I did, i found a job. Whoop whoop wheee~~

Midnight prank

2011-04-19T03:06:00.002+08:00

Best midnight entertainment ever!! hahaha silly girl lor @bindsthtbreak

Cheering me up on a pms and angsty night. <3

Pretty Face

2011-04-18T18:44:00.007+08:00

My friend recently opened up a new blogshop and the blogshop has the prettiest model!! I'm not being biased and saying this just cause that model or the shop owner are my friends, but the model is really fucking pretty!! And they mark their prices so low i feel like punching myself sometimes cause i've gotten one of their dresses somewhere else at almost twice the price...

And if you remember...

This is the one. Which i wore to amber 21 sometime back...

Color difference is due to my lousy camera

Okay i need to make a correction to that sentence, i DID pay twice the price for this dress! Say what??! sighs so depressing to see money fly away like that. And yes i saw this dress cheaper than what I paid for bt they're all pre-orders and they make you wait soooo long but this dress is going for $18 at LasCloset and its INSTOCK. no waiting time!

A couple of their pretty dresses that I'm really tempted to get...

How not to look at the pretty girl right?? hahaha.

And LasCloset promises to reply emails within 24hours and mail items out within 2 working days once payment is in. Talk about efficiency! I hate waiting for my items to arrive but i love online shopping too much.

They also hold pre-orders for tops and bottoms and its just $15 per piece. If you ask me, i really don't see a reason not to shop there!

Also they're in the midst of upgrading their online store to better serve their customers and I'm really excited for them to launch their new collections and see their new shopfront :)

Head down to LasCloset NOWWWW!

Genting Trip

2011-04-11T03:19:00.012+08:00

after 7 torturing hours on the bus, we reached! well actually i don't find the journey torturing, strangely i enjoy bus rides!! i'm weird i know. but we all pretty much slept throughout the bus ride and we woke up to cool weather, colourful hotel and the amusement park.

Looking at the photos tear me up a little lor, i describe how i feel as similar to losing someone i love cause i didn't wna leave genting at all. Coming back was such a torture for me, coming back to face all the shit everyday, and to pretend like its all going to be okay. :(

Even though it stings to look at the pix, i think i look rly happy in em!! ppl always tell me why don't i smile in photos? cause i'm not happy la! not happy how to smile?? i had so much fun, and was truly happy thr. :)

We reached ard 12pm when the check-in time was 2pm so we had some coffee and monopoly deal at starbucks.

Proud showcase of my best monopoly deal win. :>

Try the bah kut teh frm here!! its awesome.

trying to do the tongue thing?? is it called lotus tongue? lol. i can do it!!

Showing them whr the duck and rabbit is.

Our triple date. hehehe.

We were so superstitious here!! we were like "eh cannot share seat cause cannot share luck! but the couple can cause whatever he has she has." hahaha. why we so funny one uh??

I can haz long slim legs!!!!!

it looks so real in photo its kinda freaky...

We actually went to the haunted adventure before ripley's believe it or not and it was fucking hilarious inside thr!!! i admit i was super scared when i was entering the haunted house but a ghost hid at the staircase thr and tried to scare us by saying "I hantu!!" wtf??? who the hell scares ppl by saying they're ghosts?? we burst into laughter in the haunted house and totally spoilt the whole atmosphere.

Went to arcade afterwards to be kids again.

my poor wrecked car came in last :( don't make conclusions about my driving skills!

Bought the most fucking expensive vodka i've ever drank in my life. 3xxRM for a bottle of absolut vodka??!! total rip off. And so we spent the first night with alcohol and laughters.

Woke up alone in the room while the other 3 poor souls share another room. hahaha. so i let them sleep a little longer while i have cup noodles for breakfast.

Went to the amusement park on 2nd day!! best day of the trip :D LOVEEEE amusement parks. We took a fucking crazy ride called 'Cockscrew' lol..... is it just me or does the name sounds funny?!

In line waiting for our turn on the pirate ship.

It was kinda warm and we all got really tired laughing at trivial matters so we sat down and had ice cream.

Marrybrown for early dinner. Kinda like their Nasi Marrybrown, which is nasi lemak. lol.

Sent Jingjing and her bf off on the third day before going to Mushroom Garden for lunch!! The food was awesome, SUPER CHEAP. you have to go to mushroom garden if u're going to genting.

Stayed in the whole night playing monopoly deal, poker, and pillow fighting.

Wish I can always be this happy and not have to worry about anything. Why is life is fucking difficult?! I'm not over-complaining or self-pitying cause i know i'm already a lot more fortunate compared to some others but.... i feel so unhappy most of the time. and the times that i feel happy, i spend half of it worrying the happiness will just evaporate into thin air.

Shouldn't be thinking cause I feel worst every second i think about how difficult it is to just be happy or satisfied.

Say what?! its 3:58am now how long did i take to post this entry?! need my sleeppppp.

Xoxo.

Bionic

2011-04-02T22:50:00.004+08:00

Super love ohsofickle's leopard fur clutch!! <3 spacious, pretty and sturdy! (some poor quality clutches looks ugly when u hold them! or is it just me??) and lucydacyd's dour mesh skirt in military. need to shed some pounds to look better in it though :(

been awake since 9pm yesterday, which means i haven't slept a wink in freakin' 25 going 26 hours?? this is crazy. but i can feel my body deteriorating and my complexion just getting worst! i used to be able to last 33hours without sleep and still be all hyper but now i feel like a zombie, and a huge pimple just grew right beside my nose!! FUGLY :<

on a brighter side note, i am SO happy that my first week of april is all packed, starting the month right :) Going to Genting on 6th, yay aye aye aye~~ i really need a getaway badly and so i got one. So excited about the theme park and the cooling weather.

I feel like april is going to treat me well, but if 4th of april the result is negative, i'm screwed.

*Fingers crossed*

P.S.: I am aware that my mirror is grotesquely dirty, lazy to clean~ DON'T JUDGE!

Don't love.

2011-04-02T00:08:00.005+08:00

“To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket- safe, dark, motionless, airless--it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable.”

-C.S. Lewis

Fear

2011-03-31T06:20:00.004+08:00

Good bye March. 4th april u're approaching and honestly, i'm terrified.

Retail therapy with myself

2011-03-25T22:55:00.005+08:00

Went for some alone time shopping today. Yeah i know how it sounds, so sad cause alone but today was a whole different thing! Honestly i thought i wouldn't even have the mood to shop cause i'm so alone in a crowded place right... but turned out i couldn't stop. wish i had the money to buy all the things i wanted :(

By the time i reached it was already like... near 8pm?? fuck my sleeping time, its so screwed! i woke up at 5pm today. wtf is wrong with me.... So i couldn't manage to shop more due to time constraint :( no money no time, my life is a fucking sad pit.

accessorized. feeling 2009 again. and i bought a pair of earrings that i don't know if i will ever ever wear. it looks so pretty on the rack!!

Wish i have a sharper jawline and 'longer' face. I hate how short n small my face looks from the side and huge and wide from the front. why can't i have a more proportionate face??!!! arghs talk about self-esteem... i can go on and on for another 5 paragraphs at least. Shall stop whining and appreciate what i have...

2 dates i should be looking forward to: 4th April and 6th May. Stay tuned.

Xoxo.

CHC

2011-03-21T05:06:00.002+08:00

I was so excited to go to CHC's first service at Suntec! I still think the best part of that whole day was seeing all my old friends, and all the old familiar hugs.

We were made to wear those paper-made 3D glasses and they just kept sliding off so i had to hold on to it! the reason why i hate 3D movies cause I remember how I held the glasses throughout the damn Toy Story 3. A torture i would never wanna go through again. Plus I honestly don't think 3D movies make much of a difference?

Changes always somehow reminds people of the old days, and how things were in the past. It's strange but always true for me. I had fun in the past, but its time to grow up I guess. Plus I wouldn't wanna go back then cause I was so bitter after the fun days, how did I even survive the days?? It was such a nostalgic day for me.

Nothing beats seeing Georgina, Xueni and Darryl though. Best day of my horrible march. <3 And joy to the world April is coming, and so is May. oh well..... Anyone out there who hates their birthday month?

Happiness is fattening.

2011-03-20T01:31:00.002+08:00

1:32am and i'm going for supper with Laura. Why must the mcdonalds at cwp be 24hours??! sighs. God bless all the fat ppl if mcd's business keep expanding.

Okay i'm ready...

2011-03-17T16:28:00.006+08:00

I'm ready to blog about last night.

Was too tired to blog about it when i get home. I'm NEVER going to drink again. Nope i don't have a hangover, just that... i just can't handle alcohol. Seriously!! Not like I downed 20 bottles of beer last night?? 'twas that pathetic few bottles only... But it was fun. I like how alcohol makes me happy all the time :) I was really happy and I don't remember when was the last time I was THIS happy.

And one last photo that only one caption can describe.....

Wtf are we doing?

lol!! i wasn't as drunk as depicted in the photos but i did kiss them like 20 thousand times?

I hope alcohols will be less active in me cause i'm really sucha bad bad bad drinker but at the same time being a bad drinker is great cause at least i can be happy? Nothing beats that feeling, and i guess all the puking is all worth the few hours of happiness.

Photobooth

2011-03-13T16:05:00.003+08:00

I can haz new photobooth effects!!! :>

BORING SUNDAY AFTERNOON watching The Heartbreak Kid. so funny and the scenery in the show's so damn nice. me wanna go somewhere with a nice beach for a getaway.

Shisha with the girls.

2011-03-13T02:31:00.006+08:00

After so long i finally get to go out breathe some fresh air, talk to the girls and laugh at everything.

Shisha at Haji Lane and Prata house for supper! the food in the middle of the night there..... is BAD. Had chicken briyani and it was so painful trying to finish, neither did they like their prata. so one lesson learned, don't have supper at prata house. Weirdly, their prata at noon is awesome.

Why sgp so boring??!! friday night and we were at some dark place doing nothing just chit chatting sucking on some damn apple and grape flavoured stuff that's bad. then supper which is horrible plus fattening. need something to do, and a getaway :>

I'm cursed. Seriously! everytime i go out with Sharon, the food takes forever to come because our orders are always forgotten or the kitchen messed up the orders. It always happens... Maybe I shouldn't be eating too much.

I really don't wanna complain about this but..... my weight plan totally failed!! i wanted to be 50kg by dec 2010 but now i'm still.... 52kg!! arghs, now tell me, how to be 45kg by end of this year?? TEACH ME!!! :( phat gurl fer lyfe lor. i deserve it cause i eat too much. Just look at the photos!! my face looks like meat bun. why like that, why.

So unfair. Why all the girls turn 18 will become pretty girls, I turn 18 I still look like meat bun?

Enough of complaining about appearances cause I know some people don't like it, cause it seems like I'm never satisfied and I don't appreciate what I have. Actually I do, I just want to be happier?? You don't know just how ecstatic I am to hear the amount of ''you slimmed down!" comments in the last 3 months. And to celebrate that, i began eating again. BAD CALL!! ahhhh okay i jst said i won't complain. i won't. i won't.

April faster come!! Faster let me know if I can continue schooling, keeping my fingers crossed that I can, I haven't had enough of being a schoolgirl yet. I still wanna study. and I don't wanna grow up :(

This is life right? we always want what we cannot have, and we have to complain about everything...

Hello kitty

2011-03-04T20:44:00.005+08:00

My new pinkberry cover is very cuteeee :> the ribbon is detachable, meaning i can change to whatever colour i like!! hehehe. but i like the pink one best.

On a side note...

My kyr hen handsome lor!!! <3

Yes i look ghostly, and yes i love her. hehehe.

Dinner then laughters at her place <3 awesome night.

Xoxo.

Strawberry II

2011-02-25T21:36:00.004+08:00

Pinkberry again!! idk why is the keypad always so fucked up?? battle between nice-to-type-on keypad and chio pink phone. Do you really have to guess? OBVIOUSLY CHIO PINK PHONE!!! cause i'm superficial like that. :> Appetite still not going bigger, which is a good good thing. Really hope it'd stay this way for another 3 months?? i really need to shed some pounds badly.

Some good news though, my body clock is all well! i'm feeling sleep-sleep-sleepy now. Good night world and pink lovers <3

2011-02-22T03:04:00.001+08:00

best thing in my life. ♥

So just remember, I didn't fuck it up. You did.

2011-02-20T21:48:00.002+08:00

I was left to cry there, waiting outside there
Grinning with a lost stare.
That's when I decided,
Why should I care? 'Cause you weren't there when I was scared.

Lust.

2011-02-15T05:27:00.004+08:00

If only i had more money :(

Spending all this supposedly sleeping time lusting over all these pretty pieces of love.

---

Just came back from a niceeee shower and now i feel squeaky clean, all ready for bed!!! loveeee the feeling. Had fattening supper which includes starbucks AND macdonalds. and of course what we ALWAYS do, photobooth at my place. hahahahah. will never get sick of it.

VERY flat and fugly hair.

Rejected :( nobody reject my kiss before lor!! this girl :(

Reject me alrdy still wanna lick me. LOL!

AND!! Cue cheesy disclaimer that nobody cares...

The following content is intended for mature audiences only.

I'm serious.

Lesbian porn alert, stop here if you're below 13.

Okay no lesbian porn but seriously. stop scrolling if below 13.

HAPPILY EVER AFTER. ♥

Pwned. lol!!

Ok i know, i've nothing better to do. Trying to spice things up can??! And I know la duh, lesbian porn is not suitable for below 18, not 13. Mature content refers to the "happily ever after" and not the photo? lol. don't wanna cheat kids below 13 into believing "happily ever after" shit and if you're above 13 you'd probably know its bullshit.

Probably high on caffeine so ignore this ditzy post. hehe.

On a side note, am planning a genting trip with S. Keeping my fingers crossed hoping it'll work out well this time!! PLEASE GOD!! i need a getaway SO DAMN BADLY :( and, yeah, i need a job :(

Photos from the concert

2011-02-11T02:05:00.002+08:00

For all you ppl badgering me for photos of Taylor Swift's concert, here it is!!! All credits to Rafidah Hasnan, the girl crazy enough to bring her DSLR into the indoor stadium despite knowing it is an offence! even dismantled her DSLR and made me keep the lenses in my bag! haha. till now i wonder why ppl ask me for photos cause if u wna see taylor swift, jst google her name and thr u go!! hundreds and thousands of photos to see! but anyway, here you go! :)

The poor girl surrounded by the people.

And if you follow my twitter you'd probably see how frustrated i was with the traffic near the indoor stadium, it was CRAZY. i was so pissed i wish i never bought the tickets to the concert but i was WRONG! the concert was amazing and taylor swift is SO GORGEOUS!!

my voice is so croaky now from all the screaming last night but it was a lot of fun. Had to leave first because tht crazy girl didn't get enough of taylor swift and tried to stalk her from the back door! hahaha.

Felt like crying so many times when taylor swift is introducing her songs cause it all makes sense and activate my tear duct! I loveeeee her.

Taylor Swift's Concert

2011-02-10T00:28:00.002+08:00

Just got back from the concert, it was amazing! her 2nd last outfit is TO DIE FOR. And I wish i have lots and lots of photos to update this space with. sadly, NO. my phone camera wouldn't work well in tht dark space.

The constant few photos of myself, always showing how narcissistic i actually am, is undeserving of any of my readers now. :(

So here is me saying good bye until i prepare enough photos to flood this page with.

On a side note, i'm going for a CNY gathering at an ex-colleague's place tmrw!! I'm SUPER excited cause i get to meet ppl i haven't seen in at least a year! I'm happy, and hungry now! ordered mcdelivery. yessss, 95 pounds, bye. this is good bye.

2011-02-06T03:04:00.001+08:00

I wanna be good enough.
I wanna feel like i deserve what i have even when i don't.
I just want to be happy.

I want the guilt, shame and disgust i feel for myself to go away.

Guilty pleasure

2011-02-01T18:07:00.001+08:00

Just got home from the dental clinic. Gonna stuff myself with fat yummy chocolate cake and watch vampire diaries.

Xoxo.

Photobooth memory lane

2011-01-28T03:37:00.004+08:00

Was looking at some old photos when i suddenly have the urge to do this!! going down memory lane with jst photos from photobooth. We're still in the first month of 2011 so it's not too late to do a 'my change' post right??? So here you go!!

First photo from photobooth!

Rainy day and i dressed super comfy in bro's loose longsleeve top with wetlook bandage skirt.

Emo night falling asleep on bed with full makeup.

Happy girl with her first pinkberry.

Halloween 2009!

The day bro went off to France!

Newly permed hair.

Start work at giordano, tired day, enjoying MOS burger's fries.

Counting down to 2010

Before going for a horror movie.

Emo-eye period.

Emo-eye period 2.

Leather jacket days.

Last photo before flying off to bangkok.

Last day at bangkok, finally got my nars lipstick.

New school, best schoolmate <3

Hating new school life.

Happy girl wearing fav-buy from bangkok.

Fuchsia lips.

17th birthday

Skipped class to catch a movie.

Her last stayover at my place.

Getting ready for asia conference.

Presentation for my comic strip day. broke my new pink housing.

Going for supper with Shawnified after coming back from town with Laura.

Us after a longggg time of not talking.

Happy buys from daiso.

new fringe.

New hair colour.

New hair colour again.

My favourite ppl in the world staying over.

Emo eyes again.

Movie marathon.

Loving my new lipgloss from MAC.

New hair colour, again.

Loving my red hair.

renee's birthday.

Learning to be a tidy girl.

and lots of other stuffs which is obviously recent, thats why i'm not posting. u'd probably see them jst going a few post back.

and.....

Now.

I don't know if anyone else feels this but it's kind of weird how time FLIES. how some photobooth photos bring me back to where i was 2 years ago? its like every photo, i can still feel what i felt when i took that photo. How photos bring back weird feelings.

I'm not feeling too good tonight. But i know i will feel better cause i've been through this.

Pretty pointless post, jst thought i wna lay the photos out to have a better view myself. need to learn to grow up alrdy. I wish I can still behave like how I used to be in secondary school. how i never wanted to study, and how i'm dying to get into any school now. I'm happy where I am now though :)

Mickey is gay!

2011-01-27T18:17:00.002+08:00

My mickey's gay cause i say so :> we're practically like sisters cuz we share the same bed and i kiss him (urm... her) right before i sleep. ikr, i don't kiss my sister before bed but yeah idc, he's gay. hahaha!! Waiting for kyr to be done. i wonder why she needs so much time to get prepared to go out!! and all along i thought tardy queen was me. pfft >:c

Have you watched Shane Dawson's new video??! "I whip my hair back and forth I whip my hair back and forth." the way he sings it makes it catchier than how Willow Smith sang it. hahaha and Kyr absolutely hates it when i repeat it continuously. OKAY, SO ARE YOU DONE ALRDY KYR??!

Happy day.

2011-01-27T00:22:00.006+08:00

I JUST BROKE MY BEN & JERRY'S CHUNKFEST MUG!!! *cries*

and no more toffeenut latte from starbucks... two saddest thg that happened. but i'm still quite a happy girl today simply because i got home to see my chanel no. 5 sitting on my vanity waiting for me!

anyone knows if its okay to put 3 bottles of perfume near each other? like will the smell alter or smth?? jst a thought. Went plaza singapura with Kyr today to do some fabric + daiso shopping. got a burner at fucking $2.90?! best money ever spent!!

Done with our shopping, took a random bus and arrived at Bedok. walked around, bitch a lot, and home sweet home. Nothing in this world feels better than sitting in a long-journey bus with a long-time friend, talking about rock-and-roll history. Can't wait for the gathering this sunday. The food, the talkings and all the laughings <3

Now i'm gg to fill my room up with lavender smell and sleep well with this aromatherapeutic essential oil. Please god let me be hired tmrw so i will never have to suffer penniless-days again. Out again with Kyr tmrw for some furniture shopping :) her turn to revamp her room!

L's sleepover

2011-01-25T14:33:00.002+08:00

Laughing, rolling on bed, messing around, skype, coffee and an unwell person. thats about it for our night. See that girl! got the body i'm dying to have!! Its 2:36pm and i felt like i jst woke up from a coma. Is there a thing called coffee hangover??! cause i seriously feel like i'm suffering a hangover, heavy-head, dizzy, nauseous...

the new room

2011-01-23T22:45:00.006+08:00

BEFORE

AFTER

my tiny vanity corner that i LOVE.

its finally done! and i'm so tired after going all around the island today to look for stuffs. having a horrible horrible headache now, so am jst here to blog about my new room as promise. probably gonna sleep early today. Fucking migraine...

i'm quite satisfied with the overall look of the room :) so....... I AM PROUD OF MYSELF!! Now i need to go rest my head before my mood goes sour again.

Over-eating

2011-01-23T03:25:00.004+08:00

Cat-fight night with S at my place. we were literally fighting over the keyboard, making us keyboard warriors!! Lol. kinda tired~ only had 5 hours of sleep with 3 sleeping pills swimming in my tummy this morning! Difficult to not feel tired at this hour. Plus today being the last day of my period, its not letting me off. Having my final moodswing before i finally can become a happy girl again. Feeling really shitty now. Shall go bath and sleep. tmrw will be better <3

Skincare model

2011-01-20T21:36:00.003+08:00

Wahhh i think i can go be some skincare model alrdy??! hahahaha! Joking~

Anyway I've created a tumblr account and I'm having SO MUCH fun being all emo and upset there so i don't have to vent it here. I'm guessing my next update will be on my newly made-over room. I am my own interior designer!! so proud of maiself, given that i'm a BAD design student (gave up 3 months into a design course!). cannot find a worst design student so i'm proud of myself for doing up the room. Don't know how the overall of the room will look like yet cause its not done! I'm actually thinking it'll turn out to be quite shitty cause i didn't really plan it. I just went to IKEA and chose what I like, not what suits the room. hehe.

Really can't wait! Cause if it turns out to be awesome then i'll be SO DAMN proud of myself. Handpicked EVERYTHING, from the colour and placement and size of every piece of furniture, to the wall colour - even picked my own favourite portrait of Marilyn Monroe to be printed on the canvas and gallery-wrapped!! How excited do I sound now?! actually i'm most stoked about the portrait cause its the most expensive piece of 'art' i've bought and it cost me $123!! I know how all the art students and design students are rolling their eyes cause maybe $123 isn't even enough to buy their materials for their arty farty shit and here i am whining about how 'expensive' the portrait is. I think i've almost described the room alrdy?? I thought I was gonna surprise ppl by posting pics of the before and after. but nevermind, stay tuned. Might be blogging about it this sunday.

Till then, xoxo!

Inferior

2011-01-16T12:51:00.005+08:00

My wallpaper since forever. This is what I look at everyday from dusk to dawn to dusk to dawn. How to not feel inferior you tell me!! But you know how they say when you look at someone long enough you start to resemble them? HAHAHA!!!! MAYBE it will happen to me right!! who knows. buey tahan myself. my own weird belief GMH.

I need to go to Ikea and cotton on body!! i need that wall deco i saw at Ikea and I need new pjs. Enthu siao uh me, can't wait for my room to be fixed. but I still wanna sleep with my mommy eh :( Mommy's girl not!? hehe.

And my bro returned to France yesterday night :( I never thought I'd feel this sad. I thought it'll be okay since he's only going for another 4 months or so, plus its not the first time he left. But i feel damn sad this morning, waking up to that empty room! Now i'm back to being alone at home. But I like the liberty of being able to shutting all the windows and doors - my bro prefer all the windows and doors wide open cause he say got more 'kong qi'!! And he'll be back in June. so another 4 month's of loneliness :(

PRAWN TIME!!

2011-01-14T10:17:00.002+08:00

Finally!! i get to do some prawning! been asking people to go prawning with me for a really long while and unfortunately it was during the exam period that time. and ytd after steamboat at bugis, we finally went for some prawning!

Trying to act smart uh we!!! 3 girls, no experience, nobody dares to cut the worm or touch the prawn and we went like that!! So in the end, being the brave girls that we are, Sharon cut the worms, kyrene touched the prawns, and me..... i eat the prawns. hahaha~ so after 3 hours of struggle, we finally cooked the 8 pathetic prawns we got.

I've newfound respect for tht tiny sharon tday! Honestly, never in my life will i ever touch tht worm... and she did it.

Kbox @ Scape

2011-01-11T01:31:00.003+08:00

What's with kbox on a sunday??! Went to kbox last sunday with Laura and all the kbox were FULL. we successfully, and very luckily booked the last slot at Scape. The place is totally amazing, and given the cheap price, i rate it 5/5!! FULL. srsly. not only is it cheap ($6 for 2hours!! whr to find??!) the seats are fucking comfy, huge and spacious, the songs are super updated!!! i found ALL the songs I wanted to, even the new ones. love it there. but one problem with it is that, IT'S TOO FUCKING COLD!! i really cannot understand why would all the karaoke places be so goddamn cold?? i mean, haven't anyone else complained about the temperature? i'm sure tons of the customers have, but why do they insist on keeping the temperature so low?! that is one thing i really cannot figure out.

The temperature was barely tolerable so we left swiftly, plus the staffs weren't really nice, what a downer. they were constantly coming in to check that we knew our session was going to end and reminding us that we've how many minutes left to sing. wtf. i understand there's a queue out there, but we paid for it, damn it... -_-

Someone please tell me why they need to build such a grand toilet on the 3rd floor of Ion Orchard? Lol...

yesterday didn't exactly end well because of the night we spent doing stupid things. Don't want to elaborate because it does not concern me but it really got me pissed and irritated. End up upset and disappointed, crying at home, worried, pissed, and annoyed that pieces of shit still exist in this world. Thank god my Nate Archibald came over with prata to accompany me. <3

hahahaha we rly gossip girl alrdy sia. Butter Waldorf, Ashleigh van der Woodsen and Shawn Archibald uh.

I hope you stop for a moment to realise who you're actually hurting... I've nothing against loving someone wholeheartedly, but I wouldn't hurt people ard me just because I want to love someone with all I can, even in the wrong way...

Countdown 2011

2011-01-02T15:44:00.005+08:00

Wish i could sustain some of the spirit i had with me yesterday while blogging about the whole "I'M EXCITED ABOUT 2011" thing. but i can't. still, looking at the photos make me feel happy because at least we started 2011 right, right? reconciled relationship, booze, dance, music, nothing but laughters, and maybe a little bummer here and there. nonetheless, i enjoyed it!! Though i'm not exactly in good mood now, i'm still pretty stoked about the new year :)

The place was crazy and i was all disgusting, sticky and sweaty. ewwww. took a lot of time off the main arena and jst walking around looking sluggish and tired. hahaha we were all so dead beat! and on an additional side note, their whisky coke taste like crap. NO WHISKY AT ALL. cheat my money uh. hahaha.

I wish i could live my everyday feeling so excited about tomorrow, looking forward to the future. but now i'm low-spirited and... upset.

Genuinely hoping everyone enjoyed their countdown cause nobody deserves a bad beginning to a brand new year.

:)

HAPPY NIU YEAR!!

2011-01-01T06:39:00.003+08:00

YAY!!! happy new year to allll <3

honestly, 2010 have been a really bad year for me, many would agree with me. I'm not making any new year resolutions this year because i don't wna end the year with more disappointments (yes i alrdy thought of the end of 2011!) but i'm really excited because i'm going back to school and i guess things would eventually get better since everything is so mundane in 2010. many broken and reconciled relationships, so i can't tell you just how i am forward-looking to the new year 2011!

2011, i beg you, please treat me well :)

just got back from 3 hours of dancing at siloso beach and some alcohol. it was a blast for me! and i guess crazy for S and L :> i can't speak for them, but i quite frankly enjoyed every bits of it. yeppp including all the sweating, and the sore legs (hope i'll lose weight from it!) i think the excitement for the year is all thats keeping me awake now cause its been a tiring night i should be going to bed now.

Feel like having some ba chor mee now tho :P

Hope you had fun at your new year countdown, and i hope 2011 will treat everyone well. Time to put the past behind and look forward. Xoxo.

Need me to repeat?

2010-12-20T04:17:00.001+08:00

excited for christmas!!!

i've no idea why i'm so excited. maybe its because the year is FINALLY ending. been waiting for this for how long? long enough.

Candlelight

2010-12-19T01:05:00.002+08:00

went for candlelight service at CHC tday. It's awesome i swear!! the lights would go out every year and everyone holds a candle waiting for the flame to be passed onto their candle from the front. the view is almost breathtaking. (almost cause breathtaking sounds like you're looking at niagara falls or smth. lol!) photos will slowly start to pop out on fb so go check it out! maybe i'm exaggerating it but its really nice. Imagine thousands of candles lighting up in a pitch dark room, xcept a huge ass room. haha. with soft christmas songs playing. I love it.

Had to chance to see many people I haven't seen in a while, give everyone a huge and have a fatty dinner at KFC. hehehe :> fat gurl iz me.

"Never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game."
Need to keep reminding myself cause many times i was too afraid of making big decisions, too afraid something would go wrong, too afraid to do anything at all. but i'm not a kid waiting for my parents to decide for me anymore. I can't stop myself from doing things jst because of the fear, the imaginary stuffs. I pray to god this will be the last time i be so fickle minded. Please let the fear go away.

PS: i LOVE my dress from schwingschwing. and my bag!! super spacious.

I've red and swollen eyes now, super sensitive. shall eat some maltesers, make myself happy and chill, and go to sleep. I hope i can just stop thinking and worrying and just go for what I want... I'm the worst 17 anyone can be, not sure about the future, uncertain, pessimistic, irresponsible, and..... LAZY. god will my laziness stop already??! i am SO PISSED with my own laziness you've no idea.... zzzzz. lazy bug GET OUT.

FEP

2010-12-17T00:02:00.004+08:00

Went for some ink at FEP with Laura. 2 simple words to round it up, cold and FUCKING HARD TO GET CAB. oops tht makes it more than 2 words but i really need to rant about getting a cab at FEP. fucking long cab stand queue and the goddamn cab hotline wouldn't let me connect!! either tht or they'd make me listen to horrible music for 5 minutes and then tell me all cabs are booked. Whoever said cabs are losing business are either cab drivers or liars. so pissed.

Anyway we stayed at old town white coffee while waiting for the goddamn hotline to connect me and LET ME CALL A CAB. Oh and i feel stupid now that i've tasted old town white coffee's coffee. Its bitter and not nice at all. Idk how the hell ppl enjoy coffee when its so bitter. And i told L that I never knew coffee tasted like THIS and thought coffee was supposed to taste like how it is from Starbucks. Yeah expectedly she gave me a 'god you're stupid' look.

Now i feel retarded. hahaha~

From the long string of photos (from old town white coffee to loitering ard a CLOSED mall), you can see how long the wait for the cab was. Zzzzz. Was whining the whole time while waiting for my cab............

NEEDA SAVE UPPPPP. or my plan for my getaways and my education will never ever work. Sometimes i really wish i was born rich. sighsss.

PS: Luvin my headband from FLB.

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Last month of the year, 2010 is ending soon. Time to get all emotional and sentimental but i am NOT! I can't wait for the goddamn year to end. what a mundane boring yet stressful year. I cannot stress enough how much I wna just get over with this year. Excited for christmas too! Christmas at church :>

YAY YAY YAY!!!

I just got back.

2010-12-13T21:40:00.007+08:00

1 hour in traffic, and i'm home! A simple and (quite) nice getaway. had a little trouble finding a place to lodge at when we arrive because the place we booked sucked ass. so we ended up staying at hotel Equatorial, with barely enough rooms left we had to book 2 rooms that are at least 5m away from each other. Quite scary to be sleeping alone in a hotel room, so I spent most part of the night watching tv and sleeping while the tv is on. hahaha scaredy-cat sia me.

Thank god it was just a 1 night stay cause i forgot to bring most of my toiletries!! smart right me. -_- and my clothes were barely enough to last me 2 days. well at least i didn't forget my passport i guess? lol.

We went to jonker street, which everyone is telling me i HAVE HAVE HAVE HAVE to visit. so yeah we went and we went with SGD. SMART NOT WE!!! and the money changer is CLOSED. We were like desperates, asking for discounts and buying roadside food in small quantities. hahaha. pathetic... oh and the best part is i went back to my hotel room and realise i left half of my money in the room. Still had a nice night, went to this nice cafe called Geographer, sat down for some alcohol and ending the night watching a violent war movie.

Some caroling went on while we were chilling at the cafe and we were pretty amused by it actually. I LOVE CHRISTMAS SONGS!

Shall go rest early tnight and continue watching prison break tomorrow :> HOOKED!! In love with Wentworth Miller sia hahahaha. His stare fucking mesmerizing la. somemore he stare into the camera in almost every episode lor! go watch pls!

p.s.: sorry for the poor quality of the photos! took them with my phone and i've NO camera. Sold mine and no money for new one! :( would anyone get me one for christmas?? :(

Leopard preens!

2010-12-01T22:34:00.005+08:00

New favie bag!!~

Have been staying at home SO MUCH. i think i haven't left home for 2 weeks before tday. Won't be homesick for at least 2yrs alrdy i think. hahaha~

I think I've finally came up with a plan of my future, and I hope i've the determination to stick to it and jst pull through these rough patches. GOD PLS HELP ME!!!

Whatever it is, i'm quite happy right now so that's what matters, right? I really can't wait for christmas to come and the year to end. thr's SO MUCH to look forward to next year. Really can't believe how time flies. i think we all need a lesson on how to travel THAT fast unknowingly. Taking o levels, getting o levels result, working at giordano, gg to poly, living a poly dream for months, quitting poly.... it all seems like ytd to me. and now i'm getting prepared for a new school year. gosh... i srsly have NO interest in growing up and being an adult. So much more fun being a kid.

Till then i guess. Xoxo. Flying kisses for y'all!

(Before i go, see the pimple in between my brows??! its been thr for idk, MONTHS ALRDY!! any remedy? please i really need one. Anyway, let y'all see my horrible complexion!! stop thinking i've good complexion - always got compliment abt it - when i don't!! its ALL makeup.

see!! So i'm trying to avoid makeup to avoid aggravating my skin. That's it! LUVVVV)

What should I do?

2010-11-27T22:21:00.002+08:00

Been thinking about my education and what I should be doing in the future. Seriously, i've not idea AT ALL. I don't know whats best for me, I don't know what I really want... Please tell me if anyone feels the same way as I do. The worst of all is time passes by like this and I can't afford another year doing nothing just thinking about what I want... I need to decide soon or I feel like time will pass by and my life will be stagnated.

Really don't know what I should be doing now. Someone teach me, please?

Blood drive

2010-11-15T21:03:00.004+08:00

I've confirmed that i do have phobia for blood cause yesterday while i was walking around the blood drive, every single time i see blood i shook a little and ran off. chose to sit at a corner quietly. hahaha. some of my friends are superheros i tell you!! all wanted to donate!!? Will never find the courage for myself. G and X both failed the test cause they're either too skinny, or don't qualify the condition to be donating. I wish i could give G my weight and X my health. sux to be the only one who can donate but is afraid to. hahah~

Rain was pouring and the whole place was ice cold. didn't stay there for long before we cab to V's resort-like home. i still LOVE HER PLACE so much!! its really just like a resort, nothing less than that. Had a lot of fun, and i don't even remember when was the last time i even laughed that much anymore :)

CUTE NOT MY GEORGINA??! hahaha. ended the day with dinner at manpuku and a movie. I was really excited for Due Date cause everyone's been telling me how funny it is. but i actually fell asleep one-third into the movie and woke up at the last 15mins of the movie!! pissed at myself. SO SLEEPY. but it also wasn't as funny as i heard it to be uh. kinda disappointed. Now i really wanna watch Megamind cause everyone's telling me its funny too. Or is it that I just don't have that sense of humour to be laughing at movies that everyone thinks is funny??!

LUVVVVV everyone in my mini instax :> gonna get one of those huge sticky albums to put all my polaroids, photos and mini instax. the tiny little album is completely full and packed.

Am sleeping early tonight so I won't feel hungry and therefore not eat and thus...... LOSE WEIGHT!!!! BRILLIANT RIGHT. good night~~

ME AGAIN.

2010-11-14T02:37:00.004+08:00

Its so inconvenient without a camera!! ARGHS. Am selling mine so i don't have one now! pissed. can only post photos of myself frm photobooth or jst paragraphs upon paragraphs of my boring life with horrible english nobody bothers to read. Rly hope to get my new camera soon but i don't see that happening anytime near cause i hafta save $9xx for smth gg on on 1st week of dec!! SO EXCITED~~

I finally left home today (technically yesterday), went for church service at expo! i guess i've been missing out a lot, not much of familiar faces anymore :( and.... everything changed!!? weird.... mst be myself.

anyhows, i enjoyed the service! but my gastric cannot stop acting up uh!! I swear i'm rly pissed with my own body now. ALWAYS giving me trouble. tday i had such a bad gastric at night i wanted to puke. sighsss. it always happens when i'm out. and when i'm home, nothing ever happens. oh maybe jst a screwed up body clock. SHITTY.

NEVERMIND. its still my body.

I went to get a new hair color today!! dark dark brown. no more bright colors that turns ugly after barely a month due to the roots. And nobody can EVER laugh at my hair anymore! >:( Last mth i was so upset when someone laughed at my hair. its all overrrrr.

my lips look like they are badly lined. HAHAHA. tht's cuz i had fuchsia lipstick on before i decided maybe i should tone down and go for nude. so yeah, never knew it sucked so badly. biggest mistake EVER. walked ard east with this ugly lips unbeknownst to myself!! what an idiot....

Going for a blood drive tmrw! will never donate blood in my life i swear. i got a weird phobia, i cannot rly see blood, my legs literally becomes jelly. but still...... accompanying my friend thr tmrw. See how it goes.

XOXO.

Ask me questions anonymously

2010-11-10T12:52:00.005+08:00

AGAIN.

Yay!! i recreated formspring for fun. the other time i closed my account cause nobody asked me anything and it was boooorrriiinnngggg~~ wanna have smth else to do except jst watching movies and shopping online on my laptop. my life's SO boring u've no idea :(

Can't wait for december to come. SO MANY things waiting :)

Talk to me!
http://www.formspring.me/floralprints

Rainy mornings

2010-11-09T08:22:00.005+08:00

Good morning darlings!!!

Its the perfect weather to stay in. Can't describe how much i love rainy mornings - ever since i started schooling. we always get to stay in and jst waste our youths away talking about boys in the classrooms with rain slapping against the floor outside the windows. It wasn't what I loved the most when i was in that position but now I wish it'd occur every single day. Will never get enough of having 38 children in a small room, noisy, throwing things around, gossiping, talking about boys and complaining about teachers. Sadly I have a strong feeling that it's never gonna happen again. 1 heaven part of my childhood lies there.

While most of the people out there are preparing to get to school or work on time now, being all angsty and annoyed with the rain outside the window, i'll just stay in, under my warm blanket, reminiscing.

Been staying in a lot, and by a lot, i mean A HELL LOT. Have never been a great fan of sci-fi movie. (actually i kinda hated them, and action movies) But this staying-in week made me change my mind about them. And i feel a lot less like a girl cause i'm starting to hate romance, teen drama, etc... All the chick flicks i always forced everyone to watch, and now i don't adore them anymore. One day you'll see me watching starwars and shit. hahaha. playing xbox and playstation and......... the infamous boys' game- DOTA.

Have anyone started shopping for christmas and new year already?!! I can't wait to get some new clothes for these occasions! Must dress all up and be back this year for service at church. After missing it for a year or two (??) After my first christmas at church i sworn to never miss any of these services. Honestly i still think the best place to celebrate Christmas is church. Actually I had plans to go to Genting or somewhere out of SG for christmas, but I guess its not gonna happen anymore, at least not this year.

Alright enough of my talking. Shall go back to my Sci-fi movies!! :>

Have to lovely rainy morning. Xoxo.

happy girl

2010-11-03T23:51:00.000+08:00

MINE!!!

:D

Drool time

2010-10-30T03:22:00.005+08:00

Or maybe puke time

have been spending most of my time this week watching Masterchef and Hell's kitchen (re-watching). I love Gordon Ramsay. The crazy bitch who yells like nuts in the kitchen but is all smiley, cute and funny outside the kitchen.

my favourite!! if you've watched hell's kitchen and some of his other tv shows, you'd find this funny i guess? since he's always a monster in the kitchen. one of the best reason why i wna marry a chef!! hahaha~!! I'll never ever cook anything decent to put on the dining table so.... i'll never be a good housewife and cook for my family. so if i marry a chef.... i'll have an excuse to not cook.

Since i'm on the topic of food, i'll put up photos of food i'm most proud of making!! (or maybe not) lol. at least they're the most decent looking ones - from last year's O levels food and nutrition practical. I hope they're drool-inducing and not puke-inducing.

Anyway these are for kids, that explains the colour. Gimme a bit of credit for my baking can?!! at least i've ppl waiting for my cupcakes. Not so unwanted and shitty.

My first time baking cupcakes!! How colourful do they look?! baked by a 15 year old; don't expect much! Am baking for my dear ex-schoolmates this sunday. will leave some for all my darlings and lovelies :)

Am gonna go back to watching Masterchef. Looking forward to cooking disgusting food again. LOL! I remember the first time i cooked for my family (only me and my bro -.-), i ate them all up cause my brother didn't even wanna eat it by the looks of it. I better stick to mcdelivery foodies.

P.S.: I've forgotten to season ALL the food i cooked during my practical exam. thank god they don't grade by tasting the food or else i would've landed with an F for my F&N. hehehe.

Need a getaway

2010-10-17T00:15:00.002+08:00

Just got back frm pretty renee's birthday party. lotsa awkward silence bt still fun! until they started playing with flour and coke, HY and i had to hide ard. Oh and i came up with a fucking awesome quote they all love!! hahahaha. "You in here is like Hitler in the bomb shelter!!" LOL! we were staying in the 'safety zone' where nobody gets flour and someone held flour in his hand and walk into our 'safety zone'!! absolutely brilliant sentence. haha~

And i just bought a dress in 3 different colours. wtf is wrong with me?!! oh well.... at least i'm happy. Felt better this few days and i have my finger crossed behind my back that it'll stay!! Really don't wanna go back to the state of always being unhappy without any reason. I cannot even describe how sucky that is... PMS i believe.

Wanna go take a nice cold shower and sleepppppp~

And I really wanna leave SG, IKR!! i jst came back but still.... i wanna be away from all these things :( take me to anywhere away from here. please please please!~

Farewell

2010-10-12T04:27:00.006+08:00

Just came back frm KL today. went thr for a mere 2 days. not enough at all!!

actually went thr to see Zoe for the last time before she leaves for Canada and it'd be at least 5 years before i can see her in person again. don't wanna be emotional at all but i started crying on the coach back to SG. I feel funny crying alone on the coach. hahaha~

had so much fun there i srsly thought of staying and hiding thr forever bt aiya its impossible. hate my life in sg!! :(

Anyway i sold my camera and haven't got a new one so i can only steal photos on FB frm her friends. talking abt this, i met some really nice ppl thr!! Like ppl frm her church and her friends. Feel so welcome thr. IKR!! so NOT me cause i'm not the kind who talks but I couldn't stop chattering in front of anyone. until my stomach acted up again on the 2nd day. walking ard in misery but it wasn't THAT bad cuz i was more focused on looking ard in KL. the last time i've been thr was no less than 7yrs?

I really wna go thr soon again! or genting... planning planning planning. don't mind taking long bus rides for the fun. totally worth it.

Hope I get to leave SG soon again. I've been wondering for months what can I do to make myself happier again and its jst a getaway!! i can play the whole day and get some sleep at night. no more sleepless night which caused all the misery and emotional problems. can't stand myself being so negative and talking shit all the time.

am gna try to get some sleep now. jst bought a pillow spray from body shop which supposedly helps in sleeping. hope it works!!~

Fading...

2010-10-04T10:34:00.002+08:00

I haz ugly faded red hair now. Thinking of gg redder than this.... hmmm. major ahlian vibe uh. Gna have KFC for breakfast!! cannot b bothered w the diet thing these days and i know i'm gna fcking regret it :( still have 2 months to lose the 4KGS. feel sick thinking abt my weight. sighs sighs sighs.

Why is it so difficult to be happy?!! and skinny and pretty. Lol. Guess I'll always be a whiney girl.

Jst wna be happy again~~

Birthday girl

2010-10-02T08:50:00.005+08:00

Many many love t the birthday girl Xueni. :>

Went t her birthday chalet last night at ECP and i STILL haven't sleep. Went for some singing and drinking at a nearby bar. awesome night in a quiet bar. Now i feel happy again. How long will this last??

Gg to KL nxt weekend, alone :((((((

Seeing Zoe for the last time b4 she leaves for Canada. never been SO FAR frm her since primary school?!! the furthest was malaysia and now its fucking across the globe!! Wna stay in KL with her forever. hate my life now...

And......! My new chocolate bar blackberry!! super cuteeeee. which everyone hates cuz it makes my berry 2x its size.

Exhausted

2010-09-28T23:05:00.003+08:00

I don't know how to say this. Bt i'm so fucking tired. whats worst is i don't know why. i just wna b away frm all this, everything. i'm so tired of trying to make everything work out. nothing ever goes my way and i'm sick of this shit. i'm tired of figuring myself out. everyday i lie in bed for 2 hours not sleeping. keep trying to think and figure out the answer. why am i so tired and unhappy all the time. i wish someone give me an answer.

need to STOP feeling i'm not enough for anything or anyone. even though it is this way, if i keep having the thoughts i'll just... idk, breakdown? i'm done trying to find answers, done figuring myself out. i don't deserve any love cause i cannot love myself, i don't even know whats wrong with me.

why is this happening?

Have to tell myself this is pms. its nothing and it'll go in days. this feeling rly sucks...

Myself again

2010-09-17T01:42:00.002+08:00

Mac lipgloss in Flashmode.

Love this lipgloss SO MUCH!! :>

Its so sweet tht i had to keep licking it. lick it so much i start wondering if its fattening cuz its srsly sweet!!

Been staying at home so much so much. i'm bored, so bored tht sometimes i wish i'm staying with my friends cuz at least i'd have someone to talk to. i wna talk, but i cannot find the right person to talk to. 17 and i don't know who i can really talk. PARANOIA shitting me all over cuz i feel everyone's sarcastic. sighsss. and staying home makes me EAT AND EAT. my diet is alrdy a major fail!! :( this is bad. am gg back t work nxt week after 1 week of rest. mst b srs alrdy.

I still don't know what i should do. It's like my life's over? Bt its only starting. wah i have fucking weird thoughts nowadays. i hate myself.

Wna be pretty, be skinny, be everything. And i got SO sick of wanting to be so many things tht i cannot be.

I just feel.... horrible.

My life

2010-09-06T01:38:00.002+08:00

1. Peace, Love & Ice cream cup from chunkfest
2. So cute swear i'm gna drink from it everyday!
3. Mac's super awesome lipgloss
4. Fucking awesome corrector i've been crazy abt on twitter
5. My lucky pimple cream. Found a super chio red YSL wallet while buying it!
6. The Beatles zippo lighter which i absolutely love.
7. The stubborn pimple tht wouldn't go away.

BORING.

If you're a bird, I'm a bird

2010-09-03T03:11:00.006+08:00

Watching The Notebook again, for the 4th time if i remembered clearly. Forgive my sentiments right now. I feel so wrong these days, like something's going wrong. maybe i'm jst gg crazy. And best part of the movie is the final letter.

My Dearest Allie.

I couldn't sleep last night because I know that it's over between us.
I'm not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real.
And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives,
I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees,
learning from each other and growing in love.
The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more,
that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds,
and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever.

I love you. I'll be seeing you.
Noah

Forgive me i'm not some girl who moves on. I'm not the girl who just stop crying one day and say its over. I'm just not. I still cry sometimes, especially quiet nights alone, when i think about some things. i still cry over little things, and over things i know i should be moving on from. and the worst part is i can't just keep these to myself. i want someone out there to know i'm not always so smiley and happy. I wish someone would see that i spend so many nights crying and i'm not a tough girl at all. I tried all i can, wanting to be that passive girl that only smiles and that everyone loves, but i'm just not like that.

I cry.
I bake little stuffs.
I eat and cry even though the food taste horrible with tears.
I look at girls and realize how inferior I am.
I have suicidal thoughts.
I look at the scars on my wrist and think I'm a disgrace and disappointment.
I think about the past and realize how lousy I am.
I have a whole lot of makeup on everytime i leave house.
I give up easily.
I throw tantrum.
I give people headaches.
I create trouble.
I hate for no reason.
I fall in love easily.
I complain and rant.
I make up stories and make ridiculous excuses.
I lie.
I screw things up.

Some nights like this I wish I didn't exist.

I know i'm a disappointment.

2010-08-30T10:32:00.001+08:00

Emo eye

2010-08-28T23:40:00.004+08:00

Been long since my eye look this dark....

And i've rly emo hair they cover half of my face...

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Nahh actually i jst wanted to cover my other eye cuz....

I cannot be bothered to put makeup on the other eye cuz i'm gna wash it off in like 5 mins time. hahaha. jst thought it'd be fun to look emo and shit. people rly hate my dark eye makeup for idk why. i'm still loving it and maybe someday i'll go out with it again...

:>

Trying to cheer myself up frm the whole fat-girl thing. i dun wna be depressed bcuz of it cuz i know its like a small thing in ppl's eye, though its big for me. but... ya am nt gna complain SO much, hopefully..............

Fat gal 4 lyfe

2010-08-28T23:07:00.005+08:00

despite all efforts to slim down, i'm still fat like tht. look at those muscular arms. tday my feelings were totally crushed when someone i don't even know, come up to me and told me why am i gaining weight so crazily and asked if this is middle-age weight gain. FUCK MAI LYFE. we don't know each other, bt still..... don't have t be so insensitive right. i'm a girl :<

yeah and i felt like shit after tht and never felt good ever since like 3 hrs ago, only feel worst nw.

fat girls don't deserve to be treated nicely?

P.S.: After tht the guy did told me he's a friend of my bro.

Mao mao

2010-08-25T16:24:00.011+08:00

Fur time!

How abt some oriental prints??

Maybe bcuz i'm an asian?? Quite frankly, i'm not diggin into oriental-looks. my face and asian-features r enough.

waittt! don't they know tht asians r VERY conservative? bad, bad mixture to be showing some skin and still wearing the oriental prints. Fusion gone wrong.

Looking forward t some red leather (ahlian much??)

All from Balmain's Fall 2010 RTW

P.S.: Anyone know if i can get some army jackets in sg?? Not those camouflage kinds tht NS man wear! Smth like this....?

We were always meant to say goodbye

2010-08-23T02:27:00.003+08:00

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you, now I can't stop

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry

Woody and Chips

2010-08-21T23:43:00.004+08:00

Eyemask tht they had lotsa time hanging ard with. XR had the honour to use it and made me suffer sleeping directly with rays shining at me! :< bt i had sucha gr8 time w my friends hanging ard w me. i wish i cld stay w them everyday. i hate being in the room alone, makes me paranoid. had enough time of being alone alrdy.

Jst watched texas chainsaw massacre this morning and it was CRAZY!! (watched the remake of the classic) srsly, i jumped and shiver and screamed at the crazy ass leatherface. n afternoon wasn't very good for me cuz my bloody period left me half crying on my bed. i srsly never had so much pain in life than having to deal with menstrual cramp and i rly have no idea what's gg on. i'd rly love if someone could help me with this part cuz i went to all kinds of doctors for this and nothing helped. it only got worst each year. Been 2 yrs since i started seeking for medical help and all to no avail. i rly wish i cld go under some operation and jst make my period stop since i never wna have kids. (personal reasons y'see)

Arghs!! So frustrated bt i rly wna comfort myself w the fact tht lucky Kyr was here to boil water for me and bring me medicine and all. she is of such gr8 help. i think i would've fainted again if she wasn't ard.

Bt I feel so alone and unhappy now. :( sighs. some pms-ing bitch.

Crazy threesome

2010-08-19T23:35:00.003+08:00

Megan Fox and Crowd Lu's biggest fan in da hse!! b4 they left mai place leaving me alone and sad again :< am planning a trip to genting w them, CAN'T WAIT ALRDY!! all the thrill rides, the cold chilly weather. everythng. JUST. CAN'T. WAIT!

Timezone

2010-08-19T13:22:00.005+08:00

Gg off for some arcade games with Kyr and XR! some childhood fun!! :> also i need cork-board for all my mini instax photos, its all rotting under my desk. How's my glittery nailz lookin' and how's my hair colour w some sunlight looking?? thinking of gg one shade lighter, bt.... ahlian much?

Classic mess-with-hair pose. hahahahaha!

I KNOW the eyebrows dun go well w the hair, i hate my thick eyebrows toooo :( anywhere i can go and dye them??!

I know i'm boring, bt i'm not abt to get exciting yet. until my hands go on some..... vivienne westwood shoes :> the bow boots and wings. i swear, i'm gna die of happiness w my feet in 'em!! BYEEE. go play some arcade games if u're sad!

Flat-hair

2010-08-17T00:54:00.002+08:00

Look at what the multiple dyeing did to my hair!! flat and BORING now...... duhhh~ the $2xx perming lasted for a good urm.... 1week. hahaha. fuckerrrr and nw its totally flat. ppl r asking if i did rebonding to my hair! bt i'll confess tht i did not protect the curls and left it to die on its own. no products whatsoever on the hair. i think i'm like, half a man srsly. i don't use products on my skin, hair, body or anything. cannot be bothered to do so. damaging my body, my face and my hair like the way i always do. must start being a girl alrdy?!!

Another idk joke

2010-08-14T20:49:00.002+08:00

Frozen says:
wat is idk?
Ashleigh says:
i don't know
Frozen says:
then y u always type idk if u dont know?

hahahaha. my sis super cute.

G's birthday

2010-08-13T19:41:00.009+08:00

I slept in, like i always do..... was supposed to be meeting way earlier bt cuz of the delays we ended up meeting in noon. girls uh. hahaha. the blazing sun not giving way at all but we did enjoy ourselves with a lot of talks with G and playing ard with bubble (G's dog).

Actually we spent most of our time at wave house cuz ST was working thr so we went thr to chill. also, tht's a SUPER nice place to chill with or without friends. luv thr so much tht i was talking and asking abt tht place the whole big time and also keep repeating to myself tht i wna go thr often and jst chill and relax. also........ the food is fucking awesome.

While waiting for ST to knock off, G and I were jst talking and also Trish came to join us for awhile since she's working in sentosa.

Finally ST knocked off. Chillin' ard and G brought bubble for a little dip in the sea. The sun was srsly horrible. lucky ST has sunblock w her or else...... arghs i hate my tanned skin. So we jst rly spent the whole afternoon sitting down talking abt trivial matters and laughing off while playing on the hammocks.

Left in quite a hurry cuz we were running late for G's birthday dinner. The dinner was not as awesome bt we had a gr8 time talking and me telling jokes and stories. ME BEING ME. hahaha. i rly wish i was born tht kinda gentle and quiet girl but NO. i'm always the class clown, the person who talks the loudest, laughs the loudest with all my jokes and funny endless stories. ppl r begging me not to tell tht stupid story anymore.

Anw the dinner was a porridge buffet at ard somerset area, nt rly AWESOME i'd say bt its super cheap! $13 i think?! for a buffet??!! Bt we left early cuz ST was rly tired, since she's been awake and wrking since like 9 in the morning.

Awesome day overall! G's awesome and i luv hanging out with G and ST. HAPPY BIRTHDAY G!! Xoxo.

you guys will NEVER know how G is very dear to me... She knows too much abt me to care little i guess? hahaha. seeing me grow up since a little girl like.... 13yr old?!! it's like she sees me through. Love her way too much. :)

P.S.: more photos up on fb. 100 over photos, TOO much to be here.

BBQ

2010-08-09T22:31:00.004+08:00

Huge downpour tht day + 3 slept in cheater ruined the day. We were planning to go to zoo and its been planned since last week and 3 of the 4 goers slept in, me included. Poor XR woke up before 7am so the plan could take place only to realise none had woke up on time plus the downpour was so huge tht even though i woke up fairly early we had to cancel the plan. Initially planned to go to the science centre instd, obviously for the inner kid in us. hahaha.

apparently they didn't miss their childhood a fair bit and decide we should go catch a movie instd. Not a bad idea srsly, cuz i did enjoy the movie. Watch it if you understand chinese, Aftershocks. It's rly awesome! Almost brought me to tears.

After the movie we had to rush ourself frm one side of sg to the other. yupppperz! went to church!! goody girl me :> were 5 mins late..... and frankly the moment i stepped in, i felt awkward. couldn't stay in for long and i jst had to leave. for some weird reasons i began crying. HAHAHA loser much alrdy. and after service, i went to look for my ex cg mates and i began crying AGAIN?!! what's wrong with me srsly. i bet those were the tears tht i held back in the cinema earlier tht day.

After the whole crying crying crying shit thing we went for bbq at Pasir Ris park. SO HELL FAR RIGHT. frm north.

almost die on the journey back home. But was so lucky cuz M's uncle drove us home. before heading home we also went to the nearby bistro owned by M's dad to chill a little.

No alcohol for me at all. IKR!! mad proud of maiself. i know if i start, i can hardly stop until my body rejects fluid. also i swore tht i'll keep myself away frm alcohol after tht hangover frm the raspberry vodka. it was SO HARD on me i rly thought i was gna jst die.

p.s.: i think i'm having a rly HUGE crush on the guy i saw at wave house the other day!! and i don't even know him. hahaha.

I'm also getting all emo-nemo on twitter cuz i can't let smth happen to me. its huge and it hit me so hard. it's NOT gna happen cuz no one's gna accept this.. no. fucking. way.

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2010-08-08T15:35:00.002+08:00

Waiting for all the photos, then blogging abt G's birthday. I wish thr are more things to do, esp on a boring sunday afternoon with raging sun. hate this. should i go see fireworks tmrw or jst stay home and slumber the whole day away?!! Suffering a horrible headache nw. WHAT A SUNDAY?!

When will my world stop spinning?

2010-08-04T20:36:00.003+08:00

Can't believe i missed her performance at Singfest!! I deserve to DIE. Arghs :(

Everything is new, almost.

2010-08-01T00:40:00.002+08:00

New walls, new hair, new lipgloss, new nailz, new.... ok nothing much. Luvin' them all!! Been rotting at home for WAY too long alrdy cus i've been rlly lazy. rewatching classic movies and munching on fat *ahems* food. very sadly, work starts tmrw so i expect nth less than boring life and rusty blog. Thinking of deleting this space alrdy actually but........ what if i have smth sad i need to spill? Can't live without a place i can rant all i want at. well well.... :/

Went to Vivocity with @xoclusive today and got myself a pair of havaianas! Rlly wna skip the embarrassing part, but i bought a pair of pink ones. happy happy girlie with more pink stuffs :> but, i don't think my ugly fat feet go well with pink?!! they don't have much choice thr. i wanted to get the black one with gold wordings but yah..... OOS. Jst bought the pink one and i'm alrdy setting eyes on the black one and the other pink one. HEHEHE. I bought the metallic one but i rlly want the hotpink one! teehee. okokok what's wrong with me. i nv liked flipflops.

i've been getting less into heels and more into sandals and covered shoes and shit stuff. AH what's new?! me being the stupid me. i've like a pile of clothes tht's in my closet, brand new and i alrdy lost interest in them. it's all frm the bangkok trip in april. guess i wasn't thinking when i bought them. must stop being impulse and start saving up. arghs.

Should I have macdonalds???? My last meal was like, 11 in the morning or smth?!!! 12 hours ago! no wonder i was suffering frm gastric pain jst nw. bt i'm pretty sure i'll be sleeping right after i eat so it means 10 more KG of fats on me!! I hate my body. I wish I was born skinny and like no matter how much eat i'll never grow fat. I WISH.

I want money.

2010-07-30T05:22:00.001+08:00

USD 358 :(

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2010-07-28T13:50:00.009+08:00

Have been staying at home so much tht i've forgotten how air out of this house smells like?? As you can tell, i've given up on the letter challenge alrdy. HAHAHA. I guess I'll write them a letter and send to their mailbox if I rlly wna talk to them. bt the cruel fact abt tht is you know when they don't wna reply u. at least if u have them on a blog, u can lie to yourself and say they missed it? self-deceive still............

Oh and.... I've finally withdraw frm my school and am no longer a student! still cannot get use to it cause i've been a student for like.... 10yrs of my life?!! WEIRD!! am gna start work nxt monday. Zzzzz back to boring life. :( my house also went under some major change and I love how clean it looks now. :> though i know i'd probably mess it up again in another month's time. Lol.

HELLO KYR. I miss gg out with the girl in the photo above!!

Anw i've been wanting to talk to someone for a very long time. not rlly talk to her cause i don't want her to reply or i still couldn't get over and forgive? bt i've bottled up so much and have so much to tell so i guess i'll have it up here. jst spilling of my feelings, no other intentions.

You know. You were my sunshine. I mean it. You were one of the few people in life that I really trust and pour my heart to. And maybe its fate or something, most of such people I do to, will end up walking out of my life. I really had enough of watching people turn their back on me and watching them walk away. Have you had enough of that too? I guess if you have, you wouldn't be talking bad abt ppl anymore? I'm rlly not here to say bad things abt you, cause i know i do too. But i've heard so much with regards of you doing too much of tht. i know probably tht circle of ppl all do, but me and K, or maybe so much more ppl are not used to doing this... I know the way everyone love each other is different and I'm sorry I cannot get used to the idea of using words to hurt my loved ones and still loving them. One thing I still feel sorry abt, is how I made u whr u are at ur education now. That's all I guess. Bye sunshine.

One of the goodbyes I said that I meant forever and not the kind of bye tht is jst meant till tomorrow.